am i doing better?
am i doing better? is a continuation of a series of self-investigation scores that explore accountability, harm, joy, and somatics. Thus far, these pieces have been self-contained as performance art pieces and workshops. Using video sculpture and performance, the pieces presented at Coaxial investigate differing experiences of judgment, perspective, and the body as a tool for bending time to connect immateriality and materiality. This series of videos feature interviews with a variety of artists and musicians, centered on exploring the transmutation of trauma within the body through storytelling. She asks the audience to use these pieces to explore the ways in which sound, performance, and storytelling can prompt us to create different relationships with our personal and ancestral histories and our structural relationships to ourselves.
am i doing better? zine
am i doing better zine is now available for pre-order! it contains all 50 questions and a risograph cover in 5 different colors. printed by Brown Recluse Zine Distro.
SELF-INVESTIGATIONS #0
Exploring the duality of truth, where we say one thing but respond with another, this project is an exploration of how varying individuals respond to their own relationship with conflict, harm, accountability, and repair. Self-Investigations #0 is a continuation of a previous project that was a workbook and series of interviews titled "am i doing better?" This iteration has a microcontroller within a stuffed bear which is used as a "stress ball." The user is seated while watching a video asking 50 questions about conflict, hurt, and liberation. The user has the opportunity to squeeze the bear, which changes the colors of an LED strip placed in a nearby potted plant. The effect is meant to be subtle but noticeable, and the user is encouraged to focus on the questions, rather than the object and its reaction. Self-Investigations #0 is meant to highlight the difference in our intellectual versus somatic responses, and subsequently, our need for comfort in difficult situations.
The photos document the scope of the questions, the bear controller and LED lights, and a user watching the video and interacting with the bear.
Below are 3 / 10 investigations. They are vulnerable interviews that were conducted in 2019, pre-pandemic. More coming soon. Please watch the videos in whatever order you see fit. If you recognize any of the participants, please do not reach out to comment on their vulnerable shares.
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